One of the hardest things to accept in life is the fact it goes on, even if you don’t. You think “this will never happen to me” so when the shitty stuff does happen, it hits you like a bag of rocks. Learning to move on is something that can only be taught with experience- tough, harsh, heart-renching experience.
This weekend I said goodbye to my childhood home. A home where I have a million memories which can never be replaced. Irreplaceable friendships, relationships, get togethers, self-relizations, awkward stages, holidays… At first I was filled with a a wide range of emotions- sadness, anger, depression. I felt these things because I could never get these memories back and this house had been “holding” them ever since I left.
After going through boxes of memories, sitting in every room of the house, remembering all of the wonderful experiences I’ve had, I came to a realization that I don’t need a physical house to hold my memories. It sounds cliche, but my heart holds each of these memories already. Like I said the thing about life is that it moves on whether or not you do. You’re going to lose people, you’re going to lose things, you’re going to go through terrible situations as well as beautiful situations. People will die, relationships will end, favorite restaurants will go out of business, valuables will break, tv shows will end…
But our hearts and memories are forever and live on through everyone following our lives. This outfit is me breaking free and moving on with life. It’s looking life in the face and screaming “bring it on.” I’m ready for more.
|| Photography: Brandon Dougherty, brandondougherty.com ||
Shirt: Inspyre Boutique
Jeans: Forever 21
Purse: Nordstrom Rack
Bracelet: Urban Outfitters