I’ve gone my whole life being told who I am and my behavior and reactions have been a product of it. They aren’t necessarily all bad things – in fact, some are loving and flattering. But I’ve always believed other’s perceptions of me rather than believe in my own perception of myself.
Sometimes I’m so afraid of believing in me because I hate letting myself down. I expect others to let me down, but I have to go home to myself every night and wake up to myself every day. People are always going to disappoint me, but what if one day I wake up and I’m my own disappointment?
And when it comes down to it, this whole time I knew myself – the answers were right in front of me. I’m terrified of where it can take me, but I’m more terrified of waking up one day knowing I didn’t even try.
Photography: Brandon Dougherty
Top: Urban Outfitters
Necklace: Kendra Scott
Watch: Aldo Shoes