I’ve been changing my life a lot lately. Instead of dwelling on things I can’t change, making up stories in my head that will never happen and making myself feel like I’m not good enough (yes, this is my life), I’ve been working on training my mind. It sounds like I’m a wannabe Monk living in the mountains of Tibet (???) drinking hot tea and moaning “ummmmm” while someone bangs a gong, but in reality it’s just becoming more self-aware.
I’m a big believer in loving yourself. And I do love myself, but the world around me constantly makes me doubt it. It’s been a struggle, but stopping my crazy thoughts and thinking about the beauty in life has helped me even in just a couple of months.
For example, whenever I’m creating a scenario in my head that will never happen, I snap out of it and say “Let life do its thang. You’re awesome. And the universe loves you.” Life ebbs and flows, with good and bad mixed in and it’s all about flowing along with it. It’s like you’re in a boat on a river for your whole life. And I don’t know about you, but I get seasick at least once a day (the world is gross/awful sometimes) or thrown off the boat by a mean person (there are lots of them), OR even eaten by a meaner, egotistical, selfish, cowardly shark that lures me into the water and bites my leg off and leaves me to die…..(sometimes I’m cynical). So I guess what I’m trying to say is…you just have to keep rowing and swimming and staying positive even when someone bites your leg off.
In the end, it’s cliche but a hundred percent true: “Your thoughts create your world.” No one is going to make you as happy as you can yourself. Because there’s always going to be bad in the world, and we can’t run from it. Whether it’s people or situations, the only thing we can control is how we react to it all, both outwardly and inwardly (but mostly inwardly).
Anyways…I know I’m terrible with my blog this year. I just have been prioritizing myself and that means writing in my personal journal and saying “fuck yes” to whatever life has to offer. Still love you all so here’s some new pics.
Shop the Look
Top: Urban Outfitters
Purse: Urban Outfitters
Sunglasses: Brooklyn thrift store that IDFK the name to
Till next time,